Hi, gusto ko lang sana may mapagsabihan neto kasi sobrang gulong-gulo na talaga ako.
May isang guy akong nakilala, we’ve been friends for almost 5 years now and also F/Û/B/Û for 4 years. Bago ninyo ko i-judge, please hear me out.
Since 2020, may nangyayari na sa amin once every year, and after that, we hangout like nothing happened, I just go with the flow since nahihiya rin ako mag-first move to talk about it.
Pero this year ay iba na, mas napadalas ang *thing* namin, minsan twice every month or every two weeks, depends kung kailan kami nagkaka-free time na kami lang dalawa, kasi usually we have all our friends around.
Yes po, I’m the girl who always hangs around with the guys pero literal na friendship lang po ha, etong BFF premium ko lang talaga iba yung meron sa min, I don’t have girl friends, puro guys lahat ng friends ko so wala talaga kong mapagsabihan neto.
Lalong lumalalim yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya, natakot akong mag-confess or more on the thought of being rejected, I literally give him all for real. Kaya alam kong sobrang ikakadurog ko if iiwan niya ko, and also don’t want to put our friendship at risk.
But recently, nalaman kong may ka-MU or ka-talking stage siya now, since January pa habang may nangy@y@ri din sa min that month, and hindi ko alam yun not until mag-open up siya sa kin nung June na hindi sila okay.
I comforted him even brought him into a glamping to relax just the two of us, after we go home, I cut him off with no explanation. I was so hurt, cried my heart out everyday until now.
Right now, I stop responding from his dm’s, don’t go to all our hangout sets if he’s there. He also come to our house but I always makes my mom says I wasn’t home yet so he’ll leave. I restricted him from my socials but yeah, I read all his messages saying,
“Ano’ng problema?”, “Where r u?”, “I miss u”, “Here lang ako palagi, kaya mo yan”
What do I really need to do? I badly want to save our friendship but what about myself? I want to save myself, too.
Penelope, 20**, *Confidential
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