Hi, this is Jia, and never ever in my wildest dreams na nakita ko yong sarili kong magsusulat about a part of my life sa page na kagaya nito, but ate Prim pushed me to do so. Not literally, but she is the reason kung bakit ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob para ivoice out, who I really am.
Two days pagkatapos ng reunion namin, while I was scrolling sa feed ko, I saw this post from this page about a certain confession entitled “reunion with my ex” and I was so shookt that it was so familiar, only to find out that the sender was ate Prim. I was reading the comments and there were a lot of misconceptions about ate Prim, kuya Dave and I.
Noong una I was so afraid pa kasi what if malaman yon ni kuya Dave, naabala ko na nga siya, nagkaroon pa ng bahid yong pangalan niya. So I felt guilty. I went to their place before he left for Manila, lil bit drunk and drowned in tears. Todo explain ako pero alam na rin pala niya ang about don ’cause nagkita sila ni ate Prim to seal yong past nila.
Hindi ako makapiniwala na naging ex ni ate Prim si kuya Dave. Ang alam ko lang talagang fact about him is that he is also from my province, aside from naging barkada ko siya since naging sila ni Aryan (Aya), my best friend since elementary.
Siguro naman hindi na aabot to sa family ko especially sa mom and dad ko dahil first of all they are not fond of stuff like this and since I came sa angkan na napakaconservative at hindi tanggap ang mga kagaya ko. I am a lësbian. Yes, I am a boy living inside the body of a slim and long-haired girl. I also have a long-time girlfriend na hindi ko man lang maipakilala sa family ko, as my partner. That is my struggle.
My titas and titos including my parents, palagi nila akong kinukulit about my jowa na nabasa ng wîtch kong kapatid sa messenger ko once. Palagi na nilang binibring up yong about my gender and I remember my dad and his sermons, I felt insulted and discrïminated by my own family so I came up with this stpid idea na magpanggap na boyfriend si kuya Dave (to end their speculations) at si kuya Davis ay hindi ko alam na ex pala ni ate Prim. I feel like a sht.
With the help of kuya Dave, nasabi ko kay ate Prim lahat. Lahat-lahat. Nakapagsorry na rin ako because hindi ko naman alam na ganon pala yong pain na naramdaman ni ate Prim. Hindi kami close ng pinsan kong yon pero hindi ko akalaing dahil dito sa page na to, mapapalapit kami sa isa’t isa. Tanggap niya ako for who I really am and she is now my shoulder to cry on. I love you ate ko. Thank you for your advice, lagi ko yong tatandaan. Pagdating ng araw, magkakaroon ako ng tapang para sabihin sa family natin who I really am. Someday, I will not be afraid anymore, to show them my true colors.
Jia
2022
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PUP
PART 1: https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=1142138539741283&id=284904048798074
PART 2: https://www.facebook.com/284904048798074/posts/1143581592930311/
PART 3:
https://www.facebook.com/284904048798074/posts/1144929646128839/
PART 4: (DAVE’S POV)
https://www.facebook.com/284904048798074/posts/1145759272712543/